i'd like to sit and watch, as cars pass me by on the highway. & i'm listening to all my favourite tunes. i can see the sky & there are lesser buildings, lesser traffic & abundant trees. i can see the ocean, so peaceful and so steady. i could wind down the window and the light breeze could run cross my cheeks and through my hair. everything will feel so different, and so easy. feels like i can do anything. & all my worries and troubles just disappeared out the back door, and all that stood was me against nothing.
i'd stand on a patch of grass underneath an oak tree and i'd hope to god i'd figure out whats wrong. he'd answer me & all who cared would be standing beside me, hand in hand, and then i'll know that if i fell, it wouldnt hurt.
sometimes i feel incredibly disconnected, really uncomfortable in my own skin. like i dont fit into this world. like i was born at the wrong time and i dont belong.
sometimes, it just feels so hard. it feels like someones strangling life out of me. and i could retaliate, but im not doing anything. i need things to slow down. i need to feel like im a kid again. & if i do something wrong, you could hit me on the hand and i'd get a second chance. i could get chance after chance and no one would complain or scold me or ignore me, because im just a kid.
& there will come a day, when i will be able to say, nevermind the pain and all the aggravation.
im wanting more
yours truly
